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Weird asks: 1, 20, 34, 43, 46

Here we go!!

Who is/are your comfort character(s)?

Hahahaha. Ok. Well. I guess it depends upon the show i'm watching at the time, doesn't it? I mean, I have favourites in all my shows, but my absolute comfort characters, whom I love and invest in...

Veronica Mars, Emma Swan, Samantha Waters, Olivia Benson, Kaylee Frye, Buffy Summers, Jane Rizzoli, Cordelia Chase.

I have previously stated that I have a type and that type is emotionally damaged but hella strong women who are somewhat lackadaisical when it comes to their own personal safety when it comes to solving a case/getting justice (all of the above women fall into this, except perhaps Kaylee Frye, but she is my 'happy face/light in the darkness' lady, all the rest are my 'strength will rise up from the ashes like a pheonix' ladies).

I have many other faves and likes, however, you can pretty much narrow it down to who I have written fic for. These are my comfort characters, because fic IS my comfort. I have so much free therapy because of fic. I've pretty much written that post before (years ago, I would have to hunt it down) about what each major fic in my life was allegorical to... and I probably don't even WANT to know what my SVU fics are trying to break through in my brain, BUT, when I need comfort, this is where I turn.

Edit to add: Hunted!!

Go here to get a rundown on some self therapy in my major fics.

And here for a more in depth analysis of Paint It Black (question 11).

20. Do you say soda or pop?

No. Neither. I'm Australian. I say "Soft drink". Soda or pop? Pfft, get jumped on. It's SOFT DRINK. I mean, if you're feeling really old fashioned you can say 'Fizzy drink", but nobody really does. Soft drink, thank you.

34. Is there a song you know every word to by heart?

Buah hahahahahaha. Like, I think the easier question to ask there is "is there a song you DON'T know every word to by heart?"

I have a few Spotify playlists, my biggest one is called "Sing Loud", it has 114 songs on it, 6 1/2 hours worth, and I know every single word. Because I *DO* sing loud. And, also, it's worth noting that that is not my entire mind's playlist of favourite songs. Just the ones I sing loudly to. I have full musicals I can sing the entire lyrics to, musical episodes of my favourite tv I sing along to, entire ALBUMS from the 90s that I listed to on my Discman to and from Uni on the train...

OBVIOUSLY, I know most Sheryl Crow songs by heart (at least those pre 2010, I haven't really caught up to her new stuff yet), gimme a bunch of Sarah McLachlan, the Whitlams, No Doubt, Madonna, Machine Gun Fellatio, Garbage... anything from the 90s, a BUNCH of stuff from the 80s. I also like heaps of things from the 70s and some from the 60s, some from 2000 onwards as well. My taste is rather eclectic.

You don't quite know the range of eclectic until someone on the train watches fascinated as you take Rob Zombie out of your Discman and swap it for Sarah McLachlan. I got some *weird* looks.

My brain is very lyrically inclined and I remember so many words to so many songs, it's insane. If I like a song, I will listen to it over and over again until I get the lyrics right. Which, I have to say is so much easier NOW than it was back in the 80s, when you had to hover around your stereo so you could press play/record simultaneously the second your favourite song came on the radio just so you could have a copy...

But, yeah, once I like a song and I've heard it a few times, those lyrics are BURNED into my brain forever. That's why so many of my fics are song titles. Paint It Black, Memory Cloud, Wicked Game, Foolish Game, The Girl of My Dreams (Is Giving Me Nightmares), The White Room, Hybrid Lives, Silver and Cold, Spoonful of Sugar, Breaking the GIrl... etc... and those are just off the top of my head. This is why I used to vid, decades ago.

43. What’s your take on spicy foods?

There's a take? I like somewhat spicy foods.

I do not like stupidly spicy foods, to the point that it hurts and you can't breathe and it's basically a competition of how much you can hurt yourself to win... that's not fun for me.

But I do like a bit of kick. I like spicy thai curries, and mexican chillis, and jalepenos, something that doesn't necessarily want to kill you, but does bite back a little.

I am sensible with my spice level.

46. Favorite holiday film?

TBH, I'm not really sure I have one.

I mean, Die Hard is always a Christmas Classic, I guess? I'm not really one to sit around and watch a Christmas movie or... is there such a thing as an Easter movie? A Queen's Birthday movie? Ramadan? The Melbourne Cup? I don't really know.

(Well, there's probably a few movies about the Melbourne Cup, now that I think about it).

I'm not against them, per se, like if there was a movie on and it looked interesting and it was the holiday times and happened to focus on that holiday, I'm not going to turn it off, but I'm not going to seek out that specific movie.

The only real special holiday thing I watch each year... might be the Carols By Candlelight on Christmas Eve and the New Year's Eve Countdown, but those are not necessarily movies. They're not. One is a concert and one is... well... a countdown retrospective of the year and some fireworks.

I guess the Christmas movies always seemed a little too... faked for me. Maybe it was all the happy families (so fake) or the overly twee messages (please) ... maybe it was all the fucking snow and over the top decorations that seem to be uniquely American.

I don't think I've EVER seen a Christmas movie that represents what I know as Christmas, in the middle of summer in Australia.

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Beardyman ft Joe Rogan - 6am (Ready to Write) from Ian Pons Jewell on Vimeo.

Artist - Beardyman ft. Joe Rogan Label - Sony Music + RCA

CREW

Director - Ian Pons Jewell Executive Producer - Medb Riordan Executive Producer - Simon Cooper Executive Producer - Leah Joyce Founder Radioaktive Film - Darko Skulsky EP Radioaktive Film - Sasha Bevka Commissioner - Elena Argiros Producer - Ash Lockmun Line Producer - Olya Kosenko Director of Photography - Mauro Chiarello Production Designer - Robin Brown Casting Director - Kharmel Cochrane Casting Director - Sergey Ristenko Storyboard Artist - Joseph Strachan Stylist - Staysa Monastyrskaya Location Manager - Dima Mikhailov 1st AD - Gryts Makarenko

Production Manager - Antonia Vickers Production Manager - Julia Sotnikova Production Assistant - Ella Girardot Production Assistant -Volodymyr Altsybeev Directors Assistant - George Daniell Bidding Producer - Georgina Smith Set Runner - Tolik Koval 1st AC - Kirill Shlyamin Steadicam - Max Salo Gaffer - Leo Sidorenko DIT/VTR - Valik Grib aka Mushroom Sound - Dennis Ryskal Art Director - David Kharaishvili Make Up - Marta Skalska Prop Master - Vasya Tkachuk Style Assistant - Dasha Lisyn Style Assistant - Kostya Goncharuk

CAST

Hero Guy - Jack Morris Sofa Guy - Dima Nalivayko Sofa Girl- Vera Koval Girl in Car 1 - Esther Brown Girl in Car 2 - Joana Garcia Guy in Car 1 - Thomas Ngegba Guy in Car 2 - Alex Dubrova Guy in Car 3 - Pasha Gots Work Out Brother 1 - Andrii Ostapenko Work Out Brother 2 - Dmytro Ostapenko Work Out Brother 3 - Yura Ostapenko Coke Devil - Zhenia Skizov Bedroom Girl - Alla Pryadko Pigeon Man - Tsoy Andriy Dandruff Man - Pavel Evchin Screaming Lady - Nina Galena

POST PRODUCTION

Edit - Whitehouse Post Editor - Tobias Suhm Assistant Editor - Steven Waltham Producer - Antonia Porter Executive Producer - Annabel Bennett Post Production - Electric Theatre Collective Producer - Alasdair Patrick, Sam Napper Creative Director - James Sindle  Colourist - Luke Morrison CG Coordinator - Larisa Covaciu Sound Design - Tim Harrison & Seb Bruen at Aumeta Additional Sound Design - Jim Stewart & Lawrence Kendrick at String & Tins 2D Lead - Alex Grey  2D Artists - Adam Woolrich, Adrian Monroy 2D Artists - Alberto Pizzocchero, Alex Kennedy

2D Artists - CJ Gaikwad, Daniel Manning 2D Artists -Nicola Borsari, Ozgur Taparli 2D Artists - Flavio Kawamoto, Ryan Knowles, Stirling Archibald 3D Lead - Nick Turner  3D Artists - Alex Berweck, Dean Robinson, Elpida Kyriacou 3D Artists - Jake Cross, Jeffery Edo-Benson, Marko Mamula 3D Artists - Paul Cousins, Robert Reinschedl, Sergio Moralez 3D Artists - Roly Edwards, Thanos Kousis, Will Preston 3D Artists - James Waterhouse, Felix Chan, George Savvas 3D Artists - Stuart Whelbourn, Tobin Brett, Stuart Turnbull 3D Artists - Eddy Martinez, Adam Ledger, Florian Mounie 3D Artists - Ivan Xavier, Karin Mattson, Mack Knights 3D Artists - Jon Park, Remy Herrise, Toby Williams Ellis Rigger - Greg Martin Concept Artist - Romain Thirion

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Dating Evan “Buck” Buckley Playlist

(In Duration Order (shortest to longest))

brutal -SOUR- Olivia Rodrigo

Happier Than Ever-Edit- Happier Than Ever (Edit)- Billie Eilish

favorite crime-SOUR- Olivia Rodrigo

People Watching- Superache- Conan Gray

Chasing Shadows- Chasing Shadows- Alex Warren

How Do I Say Goodbye- How Do I Say Goodbye- Dean Lewis

1 step forward, 3 steps back- SOUR- Olivia Rodrigo

Our Song- Therapy- Anne-Marie, Niall Horan

I miss you, I’m sorry- minor- Gracie Abrams

Wish You Were Sober- Kid Krow- Conan Gray

parents- the underrated youth- YUNGBLUD

Good Old Fashioned Lover Boy- A Day At The Races (Deluxe) Queen

Fluorescent Adolescent- Favourite Worst Nightmare (Standard Version)- Arctic Monkeys

What A Time (feat. Niall Horan)- Inner Monologue Part 1- Julia Michaels, Niall Horan

Want You Back- Youngblood (Deluxe) 5 Seconds of Summer

All I Want- Love That Lasts Mix-All I Want (Love That Lasts Mix)- Olivia Rodrigo

Midnight Rain- Midnights- Taylor Swift

happier- SOUR- Olivia Rodrigo

Until I Found You (with Em Beihold)- Em Beihold Version-Until I Found You (with Em Beihold)- Stephen Sanchez, Em Beihold

All I Want-From “High School Musical: The Musical: The Series-All I Want (From “High School Musical: The Musical: The Series)- Olivia Rodrigo, Disney

Until I Found You- Easy On My Eyes- Stephen Sanchez

die first- forever young- Nessa Barrett

Teenage Dream- Teenage Dream- Stephen Dawes

You Are Enough- Atlas:I- Sleeping At Last

Bored- Bored- Billie Eilish

Daddy Issues (Remix) feat. Syd-Daddy Issues (Remix) feat. Syd- The Neighbourhood, Syd

I Wanna Be Yours- AM- Arctic Monkeys

Somewhere Only We Know- Glee: The Music presents The Warblers- Glee Cast, Darren Criss

Heaven- Heaven- Niall Horan

see you later (ten years)- see you later (ten years)- Jenna Raine

New Angel- Heartbreak Weather- Niall Horan

Half a Heart- Midnight Memories(Deluxe)- One Direction

Love Of My Life- Harry’s House- Harry Styles

San Francisco- Heartbreak Weather- Niall Horan

You’re On Your Own, Kid- Midnights- Taylor Swift

this is me trying- folklore- Taylor Swift

Angels Like You- Plastic Heart- Miley Cyrus

Ghost Of You- Youngblood (Deluxe)-5 Seconds of Summer

Dancing With Your Ghost- Dancing With Your Ghost- Sasha Alex Sloan

Small Talk- Heartbreak Weather- Niall Horan

Right Now- Midnight Memories (Deluxe)- One Direction

Heather- Kid Krow- Conan Gray

Moral of the Story (feat. Niall Horan)- Bonus Track- Ashlyn- Ashe, Niall Horan

Falling Apart- Hold the Rhythm- Michael Schulte

Heartbreak Weather- Heartbreak Weather- Niall Horan

Right Now- Midnight Memories(Deluxe)- One Direction

Why Won’t You Love Me- Youngblood (Deluxe)- 5 Seconds of Summer

She Looks So Perfect- 5 Seconds of Summer -5 Seconds of Summer

Brother -Acoustic- Brother-Ep- Kodaline

Little Freak- Harry’s House- Harry Styles

Walking in the Wind- Made In The A.M. (Deluxe)- One Direction

Brother- Politics of Living- Kodaline

enough for you- SOUR- Olivia Rodrigo

Youngblood-Youngblood (Deluxe)- 5 Seconds of Summer

Yours- Superache- Conan Gray

Lover Of Mine- CALM- 5 Seconds of Summer

C’mon C’mon- Live Version from The Motion Picture “One Direction:This Is Is”- One Direction

Train Wreck- Back from the Edge- James Arthur

Golden- Fine Line- Harry Styles

If the World Was Ending (feat. Julia Michaels)- If the World Was Ending (feat. Julia Michaels)- JP Saxe, Julia Michaels

hope ur ok- SOUR- Olivia Rodrigo

Forever- Divinely Uninspired To A Hellish Extent- Lewis Capaldi

Babylon- Youngblood (Deluxe)- 5 Seconds of Summer

Movies- Superache- Conan Gray

When You Love Someone- First Impressions- James TW

In The Stars- In The Stars- Benson Boone

deja vu- SOUR- Olivia Rodrigo

Family Line- Superache- Conan Gray

Mr Loverman- Montgomery Ricky- Ricky Montgomery

Water Fountain- Narrated For You- Alec Benjamin

Wildest Dreams (Taylor’s Version)- Wildest Dreams (Taylor’s Version)- Taylor Swift

Lookalike- Sunset Season- Conan Gray

Till Forever Falls Apart- Ashlyn- Ashe, FINNEAS

It’ll Be Ok- It’ll Be Ok- Shawn Mendes

Afterglow-Lover- Taylor Swift

Night Changes- FOUR(Deluxe) One Direction

Remember That Night?-Remember That Night?- Sara Keys

The One That Got Away- Teenage Dream- Katy Perry

Who Do You Love- World War Joy- The Chainsmokers, 5 Seconds of Summer

Fireflies- Ocean Eyes- Owl City

traitor- SOUR- Olivia Rodrigo

Atlantis- Tell Me It’s Real (Expanded Edition) -Seafret

If Only- Descendants (Original TV Movie Soundtrack)- Dove Cameron, Disney

If I Could Fly- Made In The A.M. (Deluxe)- One Direction

Mum- When Facing The Things We Turn Away From- Luke Hemmings

This Town-Flicker (Deluxe)- Niall Horan

Glimpse of Us- Glimpse of Us- Joji

Only Love Can Hurt Like This- A Perfect Contradiction- Paloma Faith

Dandelions- Safe Haven- Ruth B.

Don’t Blame Me- reputation- Taylor Swift

Amnesia- 5 Seconds of Summer- 5 Seconds of Summer

You & I- Midnight Memories (Deluxe) One Direction

Falling- Fine Line- Harry Styles

cardigan- folklore- Taylor Swift

Don’t Forget Where You Belong- Midnight Memories (Deluxe) One Direction

Set Me Free- Crisis/ Secret/ Set Me Free- Joshua Bassett

The Way I Loved You ( Taylor’s Version)- Fearless (Taylor’s Version) Taylor Swift

champagne problems- evermore- Taylor Swift

Astronomy- Superache- Conan Gray

right where you let me- evermore- Taylor Swift

Story Of My Life- Midnight Memories (Deluxe)- One Direction

Matilda- Harry’s House- Harry Styles

18- FOUR (Deluxe)- One Direction

Line Without a Hook- Montgomery Ricky- Ricky Montgomery

Still- Heartbreak Weather- Niall Horan

Rock Me-Live Version from The Motion Picture “One Direction:This Is Is”- One Direction

my tears ricochet-folklore- Taylor Swift

Daddy Issues- Wiped Out!- The Neighbourhood

august-folklore- Taylor Swift

How to Save a Life- How to Save a Life- The Fray

Dandelions- slowed+ reverb- Dandelions- slowed+ reverb- Ruth B., slater

TV- Guitar Songs- Billie Eilish

Fifteen- Taylor Swift- Fearless

Fix You- X&Y- Coldplay

Happier Than Ever- Happier Than Ever- Billie Eilish

If By Chance- Safe Haven- Ruth B.

Fine Line- Fine Line- Harry Styles

All Too Well ( 10 Minute Version) (Taylor’s Version)(From The Vault)- Red (Taylor’s Version)- Taylor Swift

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Ashley Benson at Chanel Fashion Show during 2019 Paris Fashion Week Womenswear Fall/Winter 2019/2020, March 5th, 2019

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Never have I ever... hooked up on set (NOT during a scene)?

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❛ OH, SHE ISN'T PLAYING ❜

❚❙ REQUEST BY @ocetevasgirl: Hola preciosa! Can I request prompt 8 from the fluff list with Voight? Love you 💖

❚❙ PROMPTS: “You're jealous, aren't you?” “You're calling that jealousy? If she/he can still use her/his legs, I'm not being jealous”.

❚❙ HANK VOIGHT MASTERLIST.

❚❙ WORDS: about 2k.

❚❙ A/N: this writing hasn’t been edited, you may find some grammar mistakes, I’m sorry about that. If you find a description about body or a word out of place, or something that it makes you feel uncomfortable / unrepresented, let me know by a private message and I will change it delighted.

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Since you saw this morning Olivia Benson walking downstairs accompanied by Voight, your good mood got burned into ashes just in a sight. He hadn't told you that she was going to come and, actually, he hadn't why to tell you. For him, it's only part of his job. But you know it's something else for her. You have seen her how she looks at your man. The unjustified and unnecessary touches on his back, on his arm. The stupid smiles she draws to him, that you would be delighted of erasing using your fist.

You have never, ever, been the kind of jealous girl. You trust your boyfriend blindly, but you don't trust her. You can't. You have tried it with all your efforts, but then you heard her laughing for no reason and Hank responding with a fleeting smile. You haven't talked him about how you feel, because the age gap between both makes you look stupid sometimes. Fortunately, you're professional enough to not let these things affect your job and your relationship. You have learnt how to hide your emotions, even if sometimes your friends suspect that something is going on by the tic that makes you blink your left eye unconsciously.

Aware that he must be there with his amazing friend, Kim places a hand on your shoulder trying to encourage you to cross the entrance and come into the Molly's. Licking your lips as you calm yourself a little, you nod pushing the door to be embraced by the warm atmosphere inside it, covering you from the cold breeze of Chicago. Letting your eyes travel around the place, you greet some of your friends waving a hand, before landing your gaze on your boyfriend. He turns at that exact moment, not even trying to contain a smile. You show him another back, but his disappears when he sees you passing him away straight to the Unit's table without greeting him. And Olivia notices it, but you don't care.

“What's up, trouble?” Jay pulls down your hair, earning a laugh from you.

“Platt said you crashed a patrol”. Wrinkling your nose in a funny gesture, after Adam's words, you take a seat next to him.

“These aren't the things you have to learn from us, you know it, right?” Antonio makes you all chuckle, calling to his sister raising a finger to ask for more beers.

“I caught the bad guy, didn't I?”

“Yeah, crashing a car”. Atwater raises his eyebrows, leaning over the table.

“But I caught the bad guy, that's my job not to take care of the cars. I'm not a mechanic…”

“BUT A COP!” You all say in unison, as always, like a famous quote.

As soon as the beers arrive, you make another toast for your car lost in action. And everything is fun until you feel a presence behind you and the silence gets installed around your table. Gulping and licking your bottom lip, as your friends drink from their bottles trying to pretend that you all weren't doing what you were doing, you turn around over your stool forcing a smile.

“Having fun, officer (Y/L/N)?” Platt's voice gives you the kind of shivers you can hide.

“No, no, n— I mean… yes”. The look on her face causes you to swallow again. “I me—mean, no?”

“It's a simple question. Yes or no”.

“Trudy, leave the kid alone”.

Saved by the bell. Your hero.

“Crash a car is part of our tradition, ain't it?” Hank tries to put some humor in the situation, traveling his eyes from her to you.

“Hm”. The woman just replies, before walking away.

You don't know about what kind of tradition he is talking of, but at least he has saved your ass. Again. Not being able to look at him, you sip from your beer trembling yet. Probably, tomorrow Crowley will ask for a convincing explanation. I caught the bad guy will not work with her, that's for sure. Feeling a soft touch in your lower back, you raise your orbs from the bottle to your boss, who makes a brief move with his chin to point at the back door at the end of the bar. You don't want to go, you know exactly what it's going to happen and you just want to forget the intense day you have had. But he raises his eyebrows with that cockiness usual on him, about to drag you if you don't put down from your stool.

With an imperceptible sight, you end up obeying in silence under the attentive eyes of your friends. Hank walks behind you with both hands in the pocket of his jeans, as you wear your jacket to zip it above your chest. The fresh air hits your face once you reach the Molly's back alley, resting your back against the wall with your face bowed to your military black boots. Placing himself in front of you, he studies thoroughly your gesture, your lips pressed and the lack of eye contact.

“What's the matter?”

Shaking your head slightly, you cross one leg behind the other, putting your hands on your lower back.

“You're jealous, aren't you?”

Letting go an exaggerated chuckle, you roll your eyes before gluing them on him. “You're calling that jealousy? If she can still use her legs, I'm not being jealous”.

“It ain't a good moment to be sarcastic, sweetheart”.

“I'm not. She is just a colleague, right?”

Hank nods in silence tilting his head closer and you're sure he can hear your heart speeding up under your skin. He always does that, putting you nervous only to prove the power he has on you, on your body, on your senses. And you hate him. You hate how proud he feels because of it. The grin on his face causes a chill down your spine, standing up from the wall to pretend that he is wrong, that he doesn't control your reactions.

“Hm… Good to know you're conscious of her position. She's gonna stay in my house tonight. We didn't plan to need more than one day and she doesn't have a place”.

For a moment, the image of you punching his face runs your mind, keeping your hands inside the pockets of your jacket to close them in two fist until you feel your nails hurting your palms. There are a lot of replies to his words stuck in your throat, but if it's a proof of trust, you would fail miserably. This is a clash of titans and you're not going to let him win.

“That's fine”. You respond squinting at him, taking a step ahead almost facing Hank. “Anything else?”

“No”.

“Okay”.

With a feigned smile, you turn to the left to leave the alley and come back to your private party, which means to get drunk until Burgess and Hailey have to carry you home.

“What an interesting night is gonna be”. Hank whispers seeing you grabbing the doorknob, teasing you as only he knows how to do.

Kissing your lips as your steps stop dead, you turn your head about to lose your calm.

“If I see her putting a hand on your leg again, I'm gonna break every single fucking bone of her body”.

You couldn't help it. He knows exactly which words he has to use to push you to the edge. The worst part is the fun he usually has doing it. Walking towards you moving his head as if he was nodding, Hank caresses his bottom lip with a forefinger looking thoughtful.

“I didn't think of you as someone violent”.

“Fucking watch me, Voight”.

“Hm…”

Containing a laugh, he opens the door for you, pointing at the inside with a hand. Clearly challenging you. But before you can pass him away, the sergeant grabs your forearm to push you back and lean his lips over your ear.

“She booked the hotel yesterday”. His raspy voice touring your head makes you feel your cheeks burning in shame.

He has won already and you know it. Wanting to leave him again, he pulls you back again hearing the heavy snort escaping your mouth.

“She knows who you are. Told her this morning”.

Did really he? Arching up one of your eyebrows, you can't help but turn your face slightly at him. Your parted lips reveal the surprise and the confusion. Why can she know it, but not your friends? Just because she doesn't work in Chicago? It isn't fair. At least, under your opinion. It's not like you're going to act like Voight's girlfriend and take the advantage of what it means. But it allows you to smile at him when you cross your eyes in the hallways, it allows you to don't have to hide if you want to have lunch together, it allows you to not have to drive two different cars and leave his house before him to work. Small simple things that for you means a lot.

“Cut off the show, boss. Everybody is looking at us”.

It isn't the first time that Hank can't avoid touching you somehow in public, finding the stupidest excuse just to feel you. And he really enjoys putting you nervous, watching the way you lick your lips and bite the bottom one, feel the way your body gets tense when he lays his hands on you, the short frights he gives you coming behind you and whispering ‘officer (Y/L/N)’ in your ear.

Actually, there's no reason why you decided to hide your relationship. You haven't even talked about it. You haven't thought if it's because of the age gap, because of his past, because he is your boss (...). You haven't given it any importance, till you met Olivia Benson a couple months ago. That kind of sergeant who comes from New York and thinks that she runs the Chicago police department. Hank hasn't told you how they met, imagining they did when he was working on the Gang Unit.

“Admit your jealousy”. Tilting his head enough to look into your eyes, the challenging grimace comes back to his face.

Knowing that he's not going to stop, you simply nod. “It isn't fair that other women can… touch you, and I have to wait more than twelve hours just… simply to smile at you without looking suspicious”.

Hank can hear to perfection the hopelessness in your voice, feeling your fingers loosening his grip around your other forearm. It's not a question of possessiveness, but of insecurity; and he's discovering it now, thinking about since when you feel like that.

“Do you wan'me to take you home?”

You shake your head, now with guilt running under your skin because you know it has ruined his night.

“I'm okay, boss. Gonna have some fun with my friends after a long day”.

“Will you have some fun with your boss after that? End the night in my house playing pool, drinking whisky? I will let you win”.

You can't help but show him a fleeting smile, almost curving your lips. That's a yes for him and Hank feels satisfied. Holding your right hand on his, your boyfriend brings it to his mouth placing a tender kiss on the back of it, before letting you go.

Hailey and Burgess are squinting at you, knowing that their suspicions weren't wrong at all. Not saying a word and pretending normality, you sit back on your stool to have a sip from your beer. You're literally sweating right now, and it isn't because of the jacket you are wearing but because of the petty smiles appearing on the other cops.

“You know that we work in Intelligence, right, little trouble?” Antonio is the first one talking jokingly.

“Yeah, and we don't need to be detectives to know what's going on”. Hailey hums resting his arms over the table.

“How is Voight in private? I've always had curiosity. He takes off the stick of his ass when he comes home, or…?”

“Halstead, I can hear you”.

“Yeah, that was the intention, Sarge”. He replies, lifting up his beer in a silent toast.

Turning at Hank just for a second, you can't help but shrug with your eyebrows briefly frowned in a funny grimace that makes him giggle. It was inevitable, since they have seen the way and how close he has talked to you. But now, the pressure within your chest is dropping down, feeling better.

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The Passenger. E F Benson. Edited by Jack Adrian. Ashcroft, British Columbia: Ash-Tree Press, 1999. First edition. Original dust jacket by Douglas Walters.

Second of five projected volumes in the Ash-Tree Press "Collected Spook Stories of E. F. Benson" series. Collects fourteen stories, all first published between 1912 and 1921, with introduction by Jack Adrian.

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